all these layers, all these masks

they sometimes seem so

unnecessary;

but i am different things to different people

and i am afraid to shift the mask and to reveal

my raw essence of all my truths may make

the people i love most run from me taking with them

all of their love—

i want to live in authenticity,

and yet i understand not everyone deserves

to know every intimate detail of me;

so if i don't invite you into the garden of my heart

don't take it personally—

i guard it fiercely so i can protect

myself from those who would rip apart me

and my dreams just for daring to exist.